I really hate myself lol It's weird you know?
I also hate my hearth.
A loving feeling? pff I forgot how that feels like really. I have only loved a few people of the so many I know. But now It's been so long. On the one hand I miss it so bad but on the other hand I dont know what to do if it would happen to me... It's been so long, I've grown abit to cold and paranoid to care about someone or someone to care about me.

well thats the state of mind I'm in right now. I self hating person with a questioning ripped open hearth.

Besides that I'm getting even more sick with and every minute that passes... Headache, general cold, puking my guts out (mostly in the morning), an entire body full of bruises, cant move without some muscle causing extreme pain, and then I meet a friend and she/he asks "Hey evrything alright" and I go like "Sure" while screaming bloody murder while crying inside my head.

pff

Ow and the great news is ... I got exams next week... hurai